God Bless The Marines!!!!!!!!!!!!!-!!!!!!!!  / Lauren's Mom
Two Arabs boarded a flight out of London . One took a window seat and
the other sat next to him in the middle seat. Just before takeoff, a
Marine sat down in the aisle seat.
After takeoff, the Marine kicked his shoes off, wiggled his toes and
was settling in when the Arab in the window seat said, I need to get up
and get a coke." Don't get up," said the Marine, "I'm in the aisle seat,
I'll get it for you."
As soon as he left, one of the Arabs picked up the Marine's shoe and
spat in it. When the Marine returned with the coke, the other Arab
said, "That looks good, I'd really like one, too." Again, the Marine
obligingly went to fetch it. While he was gone the other Arab picked
up the Marine's other shoe and spat in it.
When the Marine returned, they all sat back and enjoyed the flight.
As the plane was landing, the Marine slipped his feet into his shoes and
knew immediately what had happened.
Why does it have to be this way?" he asked. How long must this go on?
This fighting between our nations? This hatred? This animosity? This
spitting in shoes and pissing in cokes?"

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How Many Times Do We Run In the Rain With Our Children??????  / Lauren's Mom
A little girl had been shopping with her Mom in Target. She must have been 6
years old, this beautiful red haired, freckle faced image of innocence. It
was pouring outside. The kind of rain that gushes over the top of rain
gutters, so much in a hurry to hit the earth it has no time to flow down the
spout. We all stood there under the awning and just inside the door of the
Target.
We waited, some patiently, others irritated because nature messed up their
hurried day. I am always mesmerized by rainfall. I got lost in the sound and
sight of the heavens washing away the dirt and dust of the world. Memories
of running, splashing so carefree as a child came pouring in as a welcome
reprieve from the worries of my day.
The little voice was so sweet as it broke the hypnotic trance we were all
caught in "Mom, let's run through the rain," she said.



"What?" Mom asked.
"Lets run through the rain!" She repeated.
"No, honey. We'll wait until it slows down a bit," Mom replied.
This young child waited about another minute and repeated: "Mom, let's run
through the rain,"
"We'll get soaked if we do," Mom said.
"No, we won't, Mom. That's not what you said this morning," the young girl
said as she tugged at her Mom's arm.
This morning? When did I say we could run through the rain and not get wet?
"Don't you remember? When you were talking to Daddy about his cancer, you
said, 'If God can get us through this, he can get us through anything!"
The entire crowd stopped dead silent. I swear you couldn't hear anything but
the rain. We all stood silently. No one came or left in the next few
minutes.



Mom paused and thought for a moment about what she would say. Now some would
laugh it off and scold her for being silly. Some might even ignore what was
said. But this was a moment of affirmation in a young child's life. A time
when innocent trust can be nurtured so that it will bloom into faith.
"Honey, you are absolutely right. Let's run through the rain. If GOD let's
us get wet, well maybe we just needed washing," Mom said.
Then off they ran. We all stood watching, smiling and laughing as they
darted past the cars and yes, through the puddles. They held their shopping
bags over their heads just in case. They got soaked. But they were followed
by a few who screamed and laughed like children all the way to their cars.
And yes, I did. I ran. I got wet. I needed washing.
Circumstances or people can take away your material possessions, they can
take away your money, and they can take away your health. But no one can
ever take away your precious memories...So, don't forget to make time and
take the opportunities to make memories everyday. To everything there is a
season and a time to every purpose under heaven.
I HOPE YOU STILL TAKE THE TIME TO RUN THROUGH THE RAIN.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate
them, a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them. Send this
to the people you'll never forget. It's a short message to let them know
that you'll never forget them.
If you don't send it to anyone, it means you're in a hurry.
Take the time to live!!! 


P.S.   Heaven and I do it all the time and she laughs......  I guess that is why God made me so strong.  

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A Funny Joke - Lauren would have loved  / Lauren's Mom
A doctor at an insane asylum decided to take his patients to a baseball
game. For weeks in advance, he
coached his patients to respond to his commands. When the day of the game
arrived. Everything went quite well.
As the National Anthem started, the doctor yelled, "Up Nuts", and the
patients complied by standing up.
After the anthem, he yelled, "Down Nuts", and they all sat back down in
their seats.
After a home run was hit, the doctor yelled, "Cheer Nuts". They all broke
out into applause and cheered.
When the umpire made a particularly bad call against the star of the home
team, the Doctor yelled, "Booooo
Nuts" and they all started booing and cat calling.Comfortable with their
response, the doctor decided
to go get a beer and a hot dog, leaving his assistant in charge. When he re
turned, there was a riot in
progress.Finding his tizzied assistant, the doctor asked,"What in the world
happened?"
The assistant replied, "Well everything was going just fine until this guy
walked by and yelled,
"PEANUTS!"
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Take My Advice  / Lauren's Mom
Live simply. Love generously.
Care deeply. Speak kindly.
Leave the rest to God.
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Lauren / Lauren's Mom
I am sitting home doing laundry, Will is playing Civilization on his laptop, Heaven is sleeping (she climbed out of her crib and she is in my bed.....18 months old...I am in trouble... LOL), and Lauren is hopefully playing cards in Heaven with my grandparents.   I just want to take this little bit of time that I have to myself and write a little note to everyone.   This website is my crutch.  I think of my daughter, Lauren day in and day out.  I never use her tragic death as an excuse for anything.  You can ask my son, my family, my significant other, even my co-workers, but as I am approaching her 3rd anniversary of her death... I am feeling so numb.  God gave me a beautiful new baby girl, who is so bright, I hate to brag, but bright, but you know what??????  She is not my Lauren and it hurts so bad.  I can't stand the pain.  I hide it so much.  But what gets me the most is there are family and friends that browse Lauren's website, light a candle, even pay a condolence but they are doing it for the wrong reason.  They are not thinking of Lauren.  They are trying to use this website as a way to put their poiint across to the other family members and/or friends.  That hurts me even more.   Those of you know who you are.  This website is for Lauren and Lauren ONLY.
God Bless of you including myself...we all need it.   Good Nite....  

P.S.  Lauren would have typed the same thing, but listed names and addresses and would have confronted each and every one of you..... I can't.  I am numb and weak.   Close

Directions to Heaven  / Lauren's Mom
This passage is kind of long, but a good friend of mine, e-mailed this to me.  We all should stop and think, none of us include God as #1. I will be the first one to admit that... but we all should start doing it!  This is beautiful.  Enjoy everyone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   Put God & Our children first.......  


DIRECTIONS TO OUR FATHER'S HOUSE.
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>Make a Right onto Believeth Blvd.
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>Keep straight and go through the Green Light,
> which is Jesus Christ.
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>There, you must turn onto the Bridge of Faith ,
>which is over troubled water.
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>When you get off the bridge,
>make a Right turn and Keep Straight.
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>You are on the King's Highway - Heaven-bound.
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>Keep going for three miles:
> One for the Father, One for the Son, and One for the Holy Ghost.
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>Then exit off onto Grace Blvd.
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>From there, make a Right turn on Gospel Lane .
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>Keep Straight and then make another Right on Prayer Road .
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>As you go on your way, Yield Not to the traffic on Temptation Ave.
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>Also, avoid SIN STREET because it is a DEAD END.
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>Pass up Envy Drive , and Hate Avenue .
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>Also, pass Hypocrisy Street , Gossiping Lane , and Backbiting Blvd.
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>However, you have to go down Long-suffering Lane ,
>Persecution Blvd. And Trials and Tribulations Ave.
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>But that's all right, because VICTORY Street is straight ahead!
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>AMEN!!!!!
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>SEND THESE DIRECTIONS TO YOUR FRIENDS AND
> FAMILY SO THEY WILL NOT GET LOST.
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>Life is God's gift to you.
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>The way you live it............is your gift to God.
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God Bless Your Hearts  / Shay Bauguess (Sad Mom )
Hi, my name is Shay Bauguess and I am from Cambridge Maryland, I also lit a candle for your daughter. I did not know Lauren, but I am a parent and my heart went out to you when I read your story.  I was on the Marylands Missing persons website looking at the latest found tragedy, which is in my area and I stumbled across your memorial for your daughter.  I want you to know that I have not nor could even imagine what you have been through, but there are people like me out there who truly care and are sorry.  I know sorry does not bring your daughter back, and I hope that God heals your heartache.  Well i do not want to ramble, I just pray for you and your family that time will help heal your hearts, I won't say it will get easier, because that is what everyone said when my Dad died and it for me it never got easier. God Bless you and your pain. Close

lauren<33 / Kristina (cousin)
lauren 
   why did it have 2 be like this? i wish this never happened nd it wuz just a dream but it'z not and i just wanna see your face again and 2 give u a biggggg hug!!! and i love you soooo much lauren i just cant explain and ever since you went away and became a beautiful angel life has been miserble and i just want 2 be with u soo bad cuz i cant take it down here any more....baby gurl i miss wen i got 2 actually spend time with you and we went tanning on your roof and other things i wuz just so happy 2 be able 2 spend time wit mi favorite cousin..and i wanna kno are u watchin down on us? i cry every day just thinkin about u and how much i miss you i just cant take this any more lauren it iz lik the family iz falling apart and but as long as i have u then i guess i am fine 
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Praying For You  / Annoymous (passerby)
I can only imagine the hurt and anger that you are feeling after losing your daughter in such a tragic and violent way. But, if I can, I would like to offer you some words of encouragement.  God has a way of taking care of things and working them out. When we pray something to God, its already taken care of and we must wait on him. Its not in our time, but in God's time.  If you can find it in your heart to pray to God for peace, you can start your healing. I am not suggesting in any way that you forget what this person did to you and your daughter, but just remember that God has it under control.  You know about karma...he will get his (he may be getting it now).  He deliberately took one of God's children...do you think he will be rewarded for this? No way!!!! Just turn it over to our Lord and Saviour and let him handle it.  He took a life and for that, I imagine he has many sleepness nights. It's not known by us what kind of "hell" he's enduring right now, but he paved that way for himself. Please, please give it to God. Remember what Jesus said when he hung on the cross...."Father, forgive them for they know not what they do."  Yes, we are humans and we find it hard to forgive. I can't even say that I wouldn't feel the same way as you do if I loss one of my children in such a violent manner.  But what I do know is that you and I believe in God and that we should always put our faith and trust in him. I will continue to pray for your strength in the Lord, and remember God has a divine purpose for all of us. May He continue to bless your and your family.  Close

Anger / Mom
I just found out that Lauren's Killer just got 3 years knocked off of his sentence for good behavior!   His release date is July 2016.  I hope and pray he lives in pure hell when he is release.  Close

If Tears Could Build a Stairway  / Mom
IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
author unknown

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane,
I would walk right up to Heaven
and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye",
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.

My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow,
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times,
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today -
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.


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A Mom  / Lauren's Mom
Subject: Fwd: Pretty mom


Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put them down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.


Losing a child is the worse thing that could happen to a mom, but God blessed me with more children and that is why I live on.  If I 
didn't have my other children.  I would be 12 feet under Yes 12 feet under like Lauren.   I thank God for giving me more children but I hurt because I miss my first born, my lovely, beautiful daughter, Lauren. Close

In the Valleys I Grow  / Lauren's Mom
It's in The Valleys I grow

It's In The Valleys I Grow.
Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe.
It's then I have to remember
That it's in the valleys I grow.


If I always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
I would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.


I have so much to learn
And my growth is very slow,
Sometimes I need the mountain tops,
But, it's in the valleys I grow.


I do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.


My little valleys are nothing
When I picture Christ on the cross.
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.


Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.


Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.


Thank you for valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know,
The mountain tops are glorious
But, it's in the valleys I grow!

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Praying for you today  / Lauren's Mom


Good Morning !!!!

This morning when I awakened
And saw the sun above,
I softly said, "Good morning, Lord!
Bless everyone I love."



Right away I thought of you
And said a loving prayer,
That He would bless you specially,
And keep you free from care.

I thought of all the happiness
A day could hold in store,
I wished it all for you because
No one deserves it more.

I felt so warm and good inside,
My heart was all aglow.
I know God heard my prayers for you,
He hears them all, you know.
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Missing You  / Jessica Zinsavage

Lauren,
         Things are so crazy. I feel like the day you became an angel was the day my life just fell off track...and I feel like I will never be on that track again. It's like everything is misplaced,nothing is the way it's 'supposed' to be. It's so weird. I feel lost like I'm not sure where I belong and nothing feels right. 
     We went through everything together. How could this happen? So many people need you in their lives...I just don't understand. I've tried so hard to make sence of it but I can't. There was just no closure for us. Too many things were left unsaid and too many things were left undone..questions that went unanswered. I just wish I could call you..I just wish I could hear your voice one more  time..feel your hug one more time. I miss you Lauren.You know I love you with all my heart. 
Love Jess

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Friends / Lauren's Mom
Of all the friends I've ever met,
You're the one I won't forget.
And if I die
Before you do
I'll go to heaven
And wait for you
I'll give the angels
Back their wings
And risk the loss
Of everything
Just to prove
My friendship is true
I'm thankful to have
Family and Friends like you!

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An Answer from Heaven - very touching story  / Lauren's Mom
An answer from heaven.....
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy ? Is he going to be all right ? When can I see him ?"

The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it."

Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer ? Doesn't God care any more ? Where were you, God, when my son needed you ?"

The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son ? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university."

Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair ?" the nurse asked.

Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could."

Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.

The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.

She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.

It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:
"Dear Mom, I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say "I Love You". I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD ! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him ?' "God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool ? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery ! How about that ?

Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.

(Let's see Satan stop this one.) Take 60 seconds and repost this, within the hour, you will have caused a multitude of believers to pray to God for each other. Then sit back and feel the Holy Spirit work in your life for doing what you know God loves "When you're down to nothing, God is up to something." Close

Wishes / Kelly Denk
If I could have a lifetime wish
A dream that could come true.
I'd pray to God will all my heart for
yesterday and you...
A thousand words can't bring you back
I know because I have tried.
And neither will a million tears
I know because I've cried.
You left behind my broken heart
and happy memories too.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.
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what a beautiful angel ..  / Nella (visitor)
"There is a sacredness in tears.They are not the mark of weakness,but of power.They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues.They are messengers of overwhelming grief....and unspeakable love." -- Washington Irving 


Letter From Heaven

To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say.
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven. Here I dwell with God above.
Here, there's no more tears of sadness;
Here is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight.
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through.
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you.

It's good to have you back again,
you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family, They'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you're part of my plan.
There's so much that we have to do, to help our mortal man,"

God gave me a list of things, that he wished for me to do.
And foremost on the list, was to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night the day's chores put to flight.
God and I are closest to you....in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on earth, and all those loving years.
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry: it does relieve the pain.
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned.
If I were to tell you, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain, though my life on earth is over.
I'm closer to you now, than I ever was before.

There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb;
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
It was always my philosophy and I'd like it for you too;
That as you give unto the world, the world will give to you.

If you can help somebody who's in sorrow and pain;
Then you can say to God at night......"My day was not in vain."
And now I am contented...that my life was worthwhile.
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile.

So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low;
Just lend a hand to pick him up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street
and you've got me on your mind;
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when it's time for you to go....from that body to be free.
Remember you're not going.....you're coming here to me.

Ruth Ann Mahaffey

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Hatred ....Revenge  / Mom
Let's start by saying I am tired of trying to hide my true feelings of anger, hatred, and relatiliation.......There are so many people in this world I hate.  Let's start with the KILLER Theral Isadore Harris a/d/a Omar Undergood - he sits in jail and brags about not doing much time.  Let him out into the real world and let me get a hold of him w/o his gun.  You know, he can't walk around society w/o a handgun.  I am a woman who is not a fighter, I actually hate fighting, it is against God, but you know what if Theral was here right now at my front door, I would beat the pulp out of him and then guess what?  I would go to jail....so what.  You GET AWAY WITH MURDER IN BALTIMORE CITY.  Lets go to #2 Tay - Bartel Williams or whatever name the little ass whip goes by.   He is a piece of shyt and I hope his children suffer hard deaths.   #3 Jesse Brack - this is a child that I practically raised and the thanks I get from her is hey..Lauren go die....she called her that night and brought her to her death.   I hope her pace maker conks out and I will spit in her coffin.  #4 Amy Fry..... no good piece of shyt.....  Lauren stopped hanging with her because she didn't like her lifestyle.  Since Lauren has been gone that piece of shyt Amy NEVER comes by or even calls.  I hope her baby chokes on her crack pipe.   #5 Brittany Eddelman.... No good whore who drove the getaway car, I hope one day someone runs over her kid with their car and keeps going.  She is nothing but an iliterate piece of shyte. 
My anger is just kicking in...the hurt inside of me lingers...no one understands or cares.......sorry for the hatred Lauren but I know the person you are and if the tables where turned you would have looked after your own and took care of business.  I see you have no one who is really there to fight your battles.... I will fight for you in due time. I promise you that!  
Always, 
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