Dear Lauren: Let me start by saying that I never had anyone to turn to until I met my friends through memory-of.com and Healinghearts.com. They visit your site and e-mail me and call me more than "our supposedly True friends and family." I ran into your grandfather, Albert, the other day. I haven't seen him since you were about 12. He took one look at Heaven and said he saw you. OMG...... everyone says that. It feels so good because you are/were so beautiful. Albert "wasn't" allowed at your funeral. Now you know the past and you know as much hatred I have inside of me, I never turned anyone down from being at your funeral. That is so sad. It really is. After the "fat boys" made a mockery at your funeral -- may they all burn in hell! Everyday I look at your sster I see you. It maybe a good thing but inside it's not. I want you back and it hurts so much. The holidays are coming up and it hurts even more. You know when you first died and we were driving to the funeral home to make arrangements grandmom started to cry and said now I have no one to give my barbies too. I said mom, just sell them and she said NO, they were going to Lauren and she was going to buy a house and have a special room for them. She thought so highly of you. Remember changing her Scarlet Oh Hara clothes? LOL they were more expensive than my waredrobe....LOL. Now she has your TWIN to give them too, but Heaven is still not my Lauren. Your brother is graduating in 6 months. Can you believe he became an honor roll student? I know you had a lot to do with that. He is going to graduate from your alma mater. You would be so proud of him. I want to thank you again for sending me your twin. Knowing that I couldn't have anymore children and then getting pregnant 6 months after I lost you, and then having a beautfiul baby girl that looks like you has made me want to live life to the fullest. I miss you and love you.
Happy Thanksgiving beautiful Lauren. Lauren you and mom are always in my thoughts, we miss our girls so much. Hope you and Kassie are taking care of each other in heaven.
Thinking of you / Alicia (friend)
I was driving home from work the other day, and I looked at the sky and was in awe. I know you are in heaven watching over everyone, it's just so crazy it's been four years going on five. Sometimes I feel like it just happend. When I pray for you at night I fight back tears, just knowing the person that you could have been today. I will always hold you close in my heart, and be your friend forever. Love you girl. I'll talk to you again soon<3 Close
Love and prayers / Carole Mom To Angel Heather Bates (connected by angels )Read >>
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Happy Birthday! / Kim Hendricks (Aunt/friend)Read >>
Happy Birthday! / Kim Hendricks (Aunt/friend)
Lauren I miss you, especially on this day! I wish with all my heart you were right here, right now. I would give you the biggest hug. But I know you are in a better place. I will see you again one day. Love you always! Close
Lauren: Not a day goes by that I do not miss you. The pain and hurt inside of me will never go away. I wish we could turn back time and I wish I could have protected you. My heart is aching so much. When I decorated your grave on the 18th of August, it hurt so bad. You should have put me in the ground, not the other way around. As tears are streaming down my face, here comes Heaven, with your same smile but Will's hyperness...LOL Tomorrow is going to be hard for a lot of people. My baby girl would have been 20. I just want you to know (which I know you already did) that no one can ever replace you or even try to be the person who were/are. You were one beautiful young lady that had a lot of potential. I am just glad you accomplished a lot in the little bit of time God allowed you to be on earth. Will misses you a lot. The other day he found a note you wrote to him on construction paper and we laughed together and when I took it to work to laminate it I cried. You were a one and only person and NO ONE could ever be like you. I know you sometimes look down on everyone and you can see how much your brother has matured (amazing isn't it? LOL). He is really a good young man. In 8 months he graduates from high school and I know you will be smiling down at him. I know you and Will always promised to make me proud by graduating from high school. Okay mommy is babbling...... Will and Jess decorated the pole tonight. I just want to tell you I love you and Happy Birthday.....
Love Mom
PS You are still not legal to drink....LOL LOL LOL
its been 4 years already and i stil cant believe this no one really knows how bad it hurts for me to not have you here i just try 2 hide it and be strong but sometimes i just cant and now that i get older i misss you more and usually people just move on but not me i always think about how me and you could of got closer and hung out more then we did and i miss out on all that and now i feel lik i dont have anyone all i want is for my cousin 2 come back its not rite and i will never forgive him i dont care if people say you should forgive him and you will have peace no! never ever will i do that but baby gurl its like every day i always think about you wishin this was all a dream and our family hasnt been the same ever since and it hurts and my life hasnt been the same either i dont have a big cousin 2 look up 2 anymore and to tell everything to and i dnt have that anymore but we will meet again and mayb i can tell you everything but its like i hate my life and i dont wanna be here i put this smile on and really i am diein inside and no one knows but i love you lauren wit all my heart and i wish i just had the time to be closer with you <333 but you will always be in my heart no matter what i miss you and love you whole bunchesssss
In Loving Memory of beautiful Lauren / Karen Hall (Friend/Kassie's Mom )Read >>
In Loving Memory of beautiful Lauren / Karen Hall (Friend/Kassie's Mom )
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I miss you babygirl / Katie Sparkes (Friend)Read >>
I miss you babygirl / Katie Sparkes (Friend)
Baby girl,
Not a day goes by that I dont think of you. I have pictures of us at rosary hanging around my room. I'm coming to see you tomorrow. Stoping by your grave. I can't believe it's been four years.
We had plans Lauren :( You were going to come to the OLMC dances and we were going to hang out. It's just not fair that that was taken away from us.
I hate that they did this to you. You were such an angel. You took up for me for the smallest things and always had my back. We had so many good times together. Why did they have to take you away from us.
The color pink is every where around me, it always reminds me of you. It's my favorite color now, I never liked it til I hung out with you.
But I know that you're in a better place right now. Everyone misses you. It's just not fair. I can't stop crying.
But I'll see you tomorrow babygirl. I love you so much. <3
Miss you forever and always / Alicia Mozina (Friend)Read >>
Miss you forever and always / Alicia Mozina (Friend)
Lauren,
I haven't been able to write you in awhile, but I still think about you everyday. What would you have been doing if you were still here? Would we still be friends? I miss you so much Lauren. It's unreal that it has been four whole years. When I talk about you it seems like we hung out yesterday. When I hear about Angels, I always think about you. I truley believe in my heart that you are a Angel now. No lie I just got goosebumps writing that. My Pop resently passed away, and while I was in that hospital with him I prayed that you would give him love for me when he reached the heavenly gates. You touched my life in such a way I will always hold those few short years we had together close to my heart. You are remembered and cherished by so many people including myself. God knows how much we love you and miss you! I'll write you again soon. Miss you and love you always and forever.
Your Heart is your Love, Your love is your Family , Your family is your Future , Your future is your Destiny , Your destiny is your Ambition, Your ambition is your Aspiration , Your aspiration is your Motivation , Your motivation is your Belief , Your belief is your Peace , Your peace is your Target , Your target is Heaven,
A poem my friend Karen sent to me. / Mom
I Say Hello, But Sadly I Say Good-bye I say hello, but sadly good-bye, as I hold you in my arms. You, who I have known, deep within my heart. You are so real to me. For moments, yet for all eternity.
Why?
Why I ask, must this be?
To endure in pain is to ask for answers. Why must this be?
Does God know why? Will He enlighten me? Will He strengthen my faith, my beliefs so I can endure? Will I ever know the answer?
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